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| I messaged the detective to let him know of my new email account seeing as my isp has screwed up everything and i can't get into the old one... he messaged me back... they caught the guy got what they needed and soon my case will be presented to the grand jury!!!! I"m finally going to court! The bastard who raped me will pay! finally!!!!!
Yesterday i cried when i found another young woman in our town became a victim, and today i cry tears of joy because for once i feel like i'll finally be able to move on!
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| Ok so things on my case haven't been moving at all we know that right? Well here's an update last friday i got a call back from the chief of police, a new affidavit is being filed because they found the creep. so the case is moving foward! some strings will be pulled so my case is bumped up the list that need dna processing to happen. hopefully sometime with in the year i'll finally go to court. i also just started going back to therapy and i've been told it seems as though i'm not suffering from post traumatic stress disorder but rather rape trauma syndrome... so we are going through a long process of recovery that had been put on hold... all of that is now under way and someday in the future i'll be a lot better. there's also good news on mom and her fight against cancer... she's winning!!! her levels are almost back at normal so she has 2 more rounds of chemo then goes to an every 6 months plan of action so another year or so with her and the docs can declare her in remmission!!! so the treatments have been a success! thank you all for keeping her in your prayers, we ask that you continue to pray for her that her health and strength remain with her and that the treatments continue to work in her favor. | | |
| you know how taffy is pulled and pulled... thats me i freakin piece of taffy right now
i'm trying to finish up my gold and silver awards for Venturing in the next 2 weeks,
i volunteer with the catholic youth group
i'm an officer in the reenactment society
i'm a member in the reenactment society
i also hold 3 positions in the venturing crew (vp, sec, and historian)
and i am a caregiver to my mother with cancer
i'm a college student
most of that's great and i can work around everything and it all turns out beautifully but my dad is a scout master of a boy scout troop and his 2nd adult backed out of Camporee (a huge ordeal) this weekend and none of the other adults can come so last minute, so i was asked and i didn't want my dad to have to cancel the entire trip considering how huge it is so I canceled on my venturing crew's fund raiser at the county fair tomorrow night all would have been fine but my bff's father collapsed this morning and isn't making enough blood so she canceled as well so she could take care of him now i'm getting the flack for the canceling because i had originally volunteered...I'm sorry but not everyone can be fucking happy and since i'm not going on the summer trip with the venturing crew i don't feel all that horrible for canceling on something that wont help me out in the end. My dad really needs the help and i plan on signing up with his troop after i finish venturing on my birthday (april 28th) so its not that big of a deal to cancel for me...but when someone gets upset with me for it, they don't realize how horrible they make me feel. I'm a people pleaser and i can't please everyone... so ya know what... honestly i don't give a care anymore if they need me to hole crew fundraisers together they can find a new vp, sec, and historian... i'm leaving those positions on my b-day anyways... so "boo-hoo"
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| He's back? no I'm not talking about some unwanted person... nothing of the bad sort in this posting.
Jarrod. We remained friends after everything that happened in the past year, and now i'm seeing him on campus more and more... there's something sad behind his eyes and in his smile when he sees me... yet when he's thinking to himself or speaking with others its not there... I feel that he's sorry for not being ready for a single relationship....or how things went down... I don't know... I still care for him... a lot, but I cannot wait around forever. I have a future that's laying itself down one brick at a time and I plan on following God's course, if he's not ready, then I have to move on. I'm not letting anything hold me down and keep be back. I've done that so many times before and i was the one hurting in the end. I may be ready for love, but I'm not ready for heart break and never will be anymore. This heart has been broken so many times that not even super glue and duct tape will hold it together...
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| not only has it stormed all day but i'm feeling incredibly yuck.
i got sinus infection that's draining in to my stomach and i've got a massive headache.
i was supposed to have my job applications handed in tomorrow but someone through out all the old phone books with the number and address i need for a reference so i have to correct that (no white out either) so i'm gonna have to do that sometime on the computer of which when the apps are ready... no one bought anymore computer paper...so i'm kinda screwed all around....
I haven been attending the Webb Society meetings b/c i've been busy trying to do school work and take care of the house while keep up with my hobbies...and looking for a job...and i have to fit eating and sleeping in there somewhere... and now i have to skipp today's meeting because of being sick... but my scout meeting is right after that one...and i can't miss the scout meeting i have paper work to hand over tonight! and i have to discuss how i'm going to finish up my gold award....
i still have to finish fixing jewelry for my bff...
and i have homework i'm desperately trying to finish before monday so i can give my speech but i've not gotten much help on it...
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In other news my social life... pretty much non-existent. yup most of the places me and friends hang out at... can't go there anymore cuz that's where my attacker and his girlfriend and my ex and all those other ppl who turned their backs on me are now hanging out at.... so my b-day plans have changed once again... this time we're going to go play pool at the bowling alley and play a few rounds of crappy bowling with my 50 something average XD lol
No guys i'm going to distance my mind from having a relationship at this point in life... no one's shown any interest so i'm saying "fuck it" yes i'd love to be in a relationship again now that i'm ready, but what's the point if the other half doesn't like you 100%? no point really.
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